Saturday, December 19, 2009
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Friday, November 27, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
a) people are annoying.
Its all connected
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
1. the most important thing that must be dealt with first
2. the right to be or go before others
rest is up to you to decide for yourself. You either go back to what you were doing or you analyse and change things so as to do what you are supposed to do. The problem to your not sketching might be due to thoughts of a person sitting miles away. all you need to do is search for patterns and link them to the cause. As i said in one of the earlier posts, the well stated problem is a solution in itself. If your priority is problem analysis then coming up with solution is not that difficult. The Process is about finding the "RIGHT" problems, set them as priorities and they shall be solved.
One thing I Love about MIT Institute Of Design Where I learn design is their philosophy behind the process. "Ensure karman, Leave Phalam" "follow the process right in action, the product will evolve by itself". its only when you go to roots of this philosophy you will understand that your life can be designed though you cant define the term "design" yourself.
George is "design" solving the right problems?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it!
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
(So I dub thee unforgiven)
'Cause you're unforgiven too!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Why is it like that you wanned to do something and then you lose the focus? lose the focus? maybe no but it goes somewhere deep or somewhere away from you.. you need something to keep reminding you what is your life meant to be. SOMETHING not someone. If someone keeps telling you same thing again and again you tend to lose your interest even more.. you might starting hating that person. who do we hate and why? unsolved answers of my life.. Anyone's life..
Change is meant to happen. you cant change the change.. but i used to be prepared for it.. i lost myself then i lost new myself again.. i changed.. i changed again. it all started when i joined this MIT Institute Of Design. First sem was different, Second sem i realize i want to do this, Third sem was confident. 4th sem about to be over and where am i? i dont know what i wanned to do in life.. it was going good.. i Worked.. I worked on Time in 3rd sem, then what went wrong in 4th sem? is it some sort of overconfidence creeping in that nothing can go wrong? but i can see things going wrong. I cant think the way i could think earlier, The concepts are not the same. The urge to Innovate has faded. is it that i got what i wanned or i have given hope for it. i never knew what i wanned.. did i? now with 2 weeks for jury i know i have nothing to save me.. nothing to stand out from other similar creatures learning design around me.. am i even learning any more? the problem identification capacity is at its ultimate low.. recession hits learning process.. PROCESS the Process is not as unbelievable as it was.. SHIT! things did change.. is there any way out? dont know yet.. but if there is then am gonna be better in next sem, that is if i make it. People say they wont throw out people this sem. i doubt. but then even if they dont am i living to my own expectations? Expectations, i expect a lot and am dont like people to expect anything from me. Ignorance, I should be living to my own expectations before i complain..
Live your life to Know you are doing what you wanted to do and not because you had to..
One step closer to myself. It shall go on..
Sunday, April 12, 2009
reality check anyone?
time left to jury = 1 month
time left for Form studies to get over = 5 days
time left for summer break = 1 month
time left for display and control to start = 5 days
time left to complete all backlogs = 1 month
time when all backlogs should actually get over by = 5 days
number of backlogs = dont know
what is to be shown in jury = dont know
what you learn in this sem = umm dont know?
what did you do in this sem = a lot? like lot?
how much of is it related to design = dont know not much
will you be able to complete the assignments = dont know
any thing to show in jury apart from assignments = no
who is gonna take your jury = dont know
does it matter = yes it does
what should you be doin right now = workin on forms
when are you going to start doing that = dont know
do you think you are going the right way = umm dont know
do you even care for all this = yes i do
are you sure of it = no
are you happy = yes
are you serious you happy = yes
how can you be happy with all those things = dont know i just am
so you really think you gonna complete the things before jury = well yeah thats what i do every time
so lets get to work? = no not now
how lazy are you = a lot
are you proud of this = noooo ok i dont know
why you even writing this = to keep reminding myself
you think this is gonna help = no
so you wanna stop = maybe
that smile is for you.. yes you i know you reading.. haha!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
This is the time to be happy. Yes you, both of you people who think they gonna die alone be happy, someday youll be with someone and its gonna be worth waiting. Trust me it is gonna be good. good enough to be happy now. Its awesome to be happy. suddenly you start realising so many things. people around you are annoying but you dont care. instead you freak them by doin something stupid. they complain, they talk amongst themselves and they write things to each other and you sit there and watch and then you type sms to someone you should, what a life. you get out of there go to prof. what ever he says makes sense, he shows great designers work and says we need to have identity like them through our work and you think to yourself he is not as bad as people complain, why do people complain? balls as if i care, they dont see the booty(beauty misspelled) in life. sssaloni ssseee the booty. haha.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
You are sitting in from of your laptop thinking that the entire day lies in front of you and then there is nothing to do. Something we will do for sure, sketch maybe? so you take out your sketch book and sit with a pen in your hand and suddenly you get SMS which asks for a movie story. WOW! i wanted to make movie. Yes i always wanted to make some movies, so i used to look at world in way i would see a movie. you may call it as the result of watching too many movies. but then every day every scene had its sound effects and its own sound track.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
in our headlights, staring, bleak, beer cans, deer's eyes
on the asphalt underneath, our crushed plans and my lies
lonely street signs, power lines, they keep on flashing, flashing by
There are bad times and there are good times.. Thats life i guess. but in quasar there is only one thing do what ever you are supposed to do.. may it be lifting water dispensers thats 30 kg up to 2nd floor or may it be solving ego issues, anything you come across you do it with dedication. then there are legends like Rahul Minda, jai ho minda. he is awesome.. anything you tell him he'll do it.. logistic master, his only worry people treat logistic as whores, but they arent paid are they? no one is paid.. so day time i was core committee(so called) and at night i was logistics. it awesome amount of physical work. i was surprised to see myself stretching my physical limits. may it be lifting tables or stools or even putting flex on the pillars so other people can paint over it and call it wallnuts the graffiti event. i loved the pain of logistics. endless nights
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye
one thing i did not like of logistics is the breaks we took, you stop workin in mid way and then you dont feel like starting again. not just cos you lose momentum but then you realize what all body parts are hurting, which is not too good. but then there are good times like winning Car-o-gated and cultural where everyone praises you.. so lets stop here and have happy ending.. Quasar taught me a lot, new people new friends, new hopes, awesome i love it. all worth it!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
We saw patterns, we saw cubes. We saw cuboids and we saw life. then slowly our life went away from us. We gave up. we accepted we are sad, we did not try to search for the cause of sadness till we came across the course of system thinking. Yes design courses talk of life and philosophy. they teach you morals and they try to make sure you make world a better place to live in.
Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching.
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me.
System is a set of interacting or interdependent entities, real or abstract, forming an integrated whole. So when talking of ones life the system is the individual and his surroundings are the environment, this is the basic you need to know, as henceforth everything referred as system should not be misunderstood for anything else. So system is closed or open. knowing that most of the systems are open as external factors affect them. Same is the case with ones life. We are influenced by a trillion things, even more if i knew what to say as trillion sounds cool i said trillion. small things affect your life, may it be a small emotion, or a small external stimuli like touch, it can collapse the entire system or it can change it by increasing its strength.
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun.
Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of live and the seeds of change were planted.
Change is seen every where, why does everything change? trust me if the process is followed properly you can answer the most difficult questions like why, when, how etc. Don't be active thinkers be proactive said the master of thoughts. he explained further. If there is a problem don't solve the problem, instead go to the root and remove it from the roots. remove the cause of the problem to be more specific.
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but
I took a heavenly ride through one silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life.
To give examples lets say you feel sad, don't sit and waste time, don't drink, don't start smoking, don't be depressed, instead see why are you sad? analyse yourself and not only yourself (that's the system here) but also the environment. you will slowly see patterns, patterns are the most wonderful thing you can see when you analyse, they are life savers. every thing is crystal clear then. you know where the problem is and bang you solved the cause. [If i havent mentioned earlier then "A well stated problem is a solution in itself" -Prof. Dhimant Panchal, Legend]. this is how system works, it gets you back to your life and time once gone is past so you change system change and environment changes, everything is set to better. ROLE OF DESIGNER IN BETTERMENT OF SOCIETY. think of systems and look for patterns life will be simple and you will be happy. Yes i am happy too.
I took a heavenly ride trough our silence
I knew the waiting had begin
And headed straight... into the shining sun.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
As mentioned earlier, get busy living or get busy dying. World might be a cube but its faces aren't that flat. everybody has a problem, everyone has issues, everyone is pissed, everyone is talking.
ISSUES. I have issues, you have issues, we have issues, they have issues and big daddy also has issues. yes big daddy is back and loud. So back on issues, what are these issues? mostly misunderstanding between few people. may it be protest or people sleeping in hostel, its an issue which has to be sorted in a meeting which has few hundred students and say twenty faculty members face to face. who says size matters? trust me its for movies like Godzilla, here voice matters. Person with microphone is going to win. I knew that before entering the room and saw it happen. Industrial design people have issue in paying the material charges yes me too, but then we have a point. Anyway where there is an issue there is a meeting, yes the phrases are changing, next generation is going to be awesome. evolved creatures. coming back to meetings, being in most of committees its my duty to be in most of the meeting. Yes you have to cancel your plans for all these meetings. so much for excitement to go to contraptions. tomorrow is mega structures and i doubt i can make it there. reason? yes meetings. they turning me into a businessman more than into a designer.
I need my suit...
oh submissions due on Saturday lots of them and as understood i dont think i am working on any. asking why? meetings. Everything leads to a meeting. why is my name rohan? probably was decided in a meeting. don't say i know am losing it.
One thing i like of these meetings is that they keep me busy. and more busy i am less time to think of anything else, less time to be depressed and friends think the same. Stress plays huge role in design. everyone is stressed everyone has problems, if not everyone creates problem to be busy.
I am trying to make a screwdriver to keep me busy in hostel. as i said get busy get better.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Things went wrong, we all know that. Something that ate me from inside. Something that affected my life. Something that made me lose track of whats happening. Changed me into something no one want me to be and something even i don't want to be. But what is it that made me change? there has to be something.
Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this Can t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he 's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now, I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Hmm. so you did not study for your course because you been workin for something called quasar? wtf is this quasar? why is this quasar? why am I doin all the work? baaaah!
Yeh dil pighla ke saaz bana loon,
dhadkan ko awaz bana loon,
smoking smoking nikle re dhooan.
Everyday same things same issues and same people but with same scene with no work. people dont work for quasar and you dont work for assignments. many come and say they gonna help you many come and say its time to make this happen and others dont bother.. oh there are few who say you people not workin enough. phew!
Seene mein jalti hai armanon ki arthi,
Arrey what to tell you darling kya hua.
Slog slog slog, thats what you do and then you realise its not at all enough.. you need more people to work but you dont know what work to hand out to whom.. Sponsors name come in big names and big dreams but nothing happens and then you are at block one..
Arrey sapne dekhe jannat ke,
par mitti mein mil jaen,
phooken re ghar baar ki duniya..
ko bole good bye..
Chad jae haye Allah,
jisko bhi yeh bukhaar.
Every night is quasar night and everyday is quasar day. we play quasar quasar with each other. all we talk is minda kidhar hai, saraf idhar aa, praneti tu phone laga, class ke maa ki.. aye tuh majaak mat kar.. QUASAR! yeh kya hota hai?
I think we all are going crazy. its not less than any asylum to live in when you handle one event like this but what went wrong? others do handle bigger event... hmm maybe we taking everything too seriously.
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
But if i dont then who will? your momma? or mine? and why am i talking like this?? told ya goin crazy! cant help it.. few of them already have given in.
Lets not talk quasar.
Republic day coming up, planning to do some patriotic graphics. so i think thats enough for this post, i have time so lets do something NON QUASAR!
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Make plans and follow them. weekend is also packed and then you make huge changes to make things happen. Yes, lot of changes. You try and make things happen so as others wont feel bad. But others dont want them to happen now. you wonder why and then understand the problem faced by others.
Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
You accept the fact that things wont happen according to plan so you decide to carry on and finish other things fast. But then you get to know that your accepting the fact is because you dont care. That hurts. O think thats meant to hurt. But not to think over things as they remind us of pills you go out for ride. You dont like the breeze hitting your face today. It makes tears roll down your eyes, Stupid wind thinks you should cry, you wipe your face with one hand and other holding the accelerator on full just to realise that wind wasnt that smart you are stupid. You dont stop you go, on and on. then you think lets divert mind so you go and shop. shopping biscuits isn't fun, specially when you pick one pack and ten fall. this happens over and over again. you are scared of whats happening.
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want.
You get out of there and get back to riding when they call and tell you they want you to come back. you refuse and go on and on. till the road comes to an end. you come back and you see them standing there as if waiting for you. Hope you seek and they ask whats wrong with you why would you behave like this. Blackness shoots in you and you walk off...
you tell them you think i dont care? wait i will show you what it is not to care. you start to ignore and thats when you realise what they always say. there is no place for goodness in todays world.
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
When you have time you get busy living or you get busy dying.
i chose to die.
Day went by and we made lists of sponsors and lots more.. lists are part of life. Starts with Quasar list and will end as backlog list. Oh! there is a grade list also in between which hangs proudly on the notice brd of class. shows a C+ in front of my name. thats the jury grade. and yes also the design process grade.. so much for grinding pepper i thought but then its OK, shit happens . rest the grades looks decent for this cuboid.
Back to Quasar the Q word, the day goes in lists meetings and more meetings. shouting at people, taking crap from people wanting to go home and being unable to leave the institute. and there are dumb lookin un-enthusiastic juniors. how nice of them their existence is mere formality in putting up the fest. oh there is a presentation to be made for Monday on materials. DAMN !
dont even ask about the material class its theory and it is important.. very important. i already have thousands of pages to read and no time. test is going to test many things apart from materials. i think its time for presentation. the showdown.
WARNING: IF I FIND YOU READING THIS AND NOT WORKING FOR QUASAR YOU MIGHT END UP IN TROUBLE. THERE IS A POSSIBILITY I MIGHT ASK YOU TO WRITE FURTHER AS ANYWAY WE NEED CONTENT WRITERS AND EVEN PROOF READERS.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
The war is about to start. people with heart problems advised to leave right away.
Q: how do i start 'this thing'?
A: there must be a power button press that.
the user finds out there are two switches on the laptop and presses one to see the laptop starting. As soon as the screen shows text the user presses the same switch and claims that the laptop shut by itself (yes i saw them doin it). I say you pressed it again so it got switched off. "NO i didnt press anything" they said. Now am about to explode.
then many worse things happened which i wanned to write about but now i've calmed down and i think there is no point in thinking about the bad times and then making rest of the day bad..
Santosh, see this is where writing helps.
and so i listen to songs..
Silence must be heard -Enigma
Look into the others eyes, many frustrations
Read between the lines, no words just vibrations
Dont ignore hidden desires
Pay attention, youre playing with fire
Silence must be heard, noise should be observed
The time has come to learn, that silence ...
Silence must be heard
Or diamonds will burn, friendly cards will turn
Cause silence has the right to be heard
Thus is the morning when am supposed to be institute and working while am here miles away and writing blog to understand what went wrong. Oh they want to get me help, some pills maybe in future, who cares if that what it takes to be happy.