Communication Breakdown

Sometimes I wonder if I am actually designed to work at night. The best ideas, the most random thoughts, the best solution happens when I should be actually sleeping. It is already 3.20 AM and am here writing this blog. Now if you happen to read this post(most likely it will be myself reading it after ages) you should be thinking why in the world am I awake at this time when I was really tired and should have slept 4 hours ago. Well I was reading my old blog posts on this blog. I realized how well connected I was to what I was doing back then. Every thought every instance is captured. It's been 5 years since I been stating that world is a cube. YES, 5 years since this blog started. What happened in these 5 years? shit loads. I became a designer, I started working, I questioned my passion and right now I read through most of the posts on this blog. Reading all the old posts feels so good. I feels so connected to myself. I used to think about things. Design was not something i did, design was life. think about design, link things to design, everything had to have something about design.

PAUSE

What is happening now? Why is it that the connection is lost? Why dont I think about the things i used to think about earlier. Why the puzzles of design are not that interesting? Why is the curiosity in knowing the answers to simple things missing? What the heck is happening? NO CLUE. But then I read all these posts here. I realized one difference in then and now. Then there was some motivation to do things. There was this i-cuboid to update. Though not many would read it, it has always been a way to connect to self. That is what has changed. Now that the people are missing and life is not just about design, but about thousands of different things, there is this disconnect with the thoughts. The reason to learn new things which was to share the learning is somewhat missing. That is why I wanted to teach someplace. This will not just get me closer to people who are like minded but also help me pedal my thoughts and think more. There are so many things to do in life. What we do is waste most of the time in tasks we dont even know how are they (not) helping us. Why do we lose passion is when we dont look at the things we are doing as not tasks but stories to be told someday or to be written on your blog. If I have to tell this moment as a story like I am doing right now, It will be so much better than saying "yeah one day i was awake late at night and i thought i should write my blog". No, Stories are the things you will leave behind. These are the things that gives your life some sense, a meaning and if not recorded these stories are lost. If not for this blog how would i remember how my 5th semester jury went? How will i know what I learnt from my past experiences. The only way to do that is to note these experiences and then try to make sense out of it.

"Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something—your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever—because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference." -Steve Jobs


Cant imagine a dull life like now with such a wonderful thing as design. The beauty of it lies in not just making new things but understanding what it is that is making something the way it is. Without design I would have never had i-cuboid, Without i-cuboid I would have never collected so many memories and experiences, without these experiences I would be nothing. Design has shown me how to analyze things and it has given me a mindset to look at things from different perspective. Life might be dull but it is design that gives me the ability to sit back and look at my life and see what is it that is going wrong. The purpose, the GOAL, the reason, i-cuboid. The only way to know what is going on with my life will be to connect to my thoughts and the best way to that will be none other than to keep updating this blog. Recreate the identity of i-cuboid in me. Awaken the thinker/designer and connect the dots in future.


Though the new year is still almost 20 days away, I think I already have a new year resolution, To connect to myself and write more* so later it makes sense like all these posts are making sense now.

*If the world does not end like Mayans thought it would.

PS - Its almost 4:00 AM now. Already feels like good old college days. 

Coming Back to Life

We saw patterns, we saw cubes. We saw cuboids and we saw life. then slowly our life went away from us. We gave up. we accepted we are sad, we did not try to search for the cause of sadness till we came across the course of system thinking. Yes design courses talk of life and philosophy. they teach you morals and they try to make sure you make world a better place to live in.

Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching.

Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me.

System is a set of interacting or interdependent entities, real or abstract, forming an integrated whole. So when talking of ones life the system is the individual and his surroundings are the environment, this is the basic you need to know, as henceforth everything referred as system should not be misunderstood for anything else. So system is closed or open. knowing that most of the systems are open as external factors affect them. Same is the case with ones life. We are influenced by a trillion things, even more if i knew what to say as trillion sounds cool i said trillion. small things affect your life, may it be a small emotion, or a small external stimuli like touch, it can collapse the entire system or it can change it by increasing its strength.

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun.

Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of live and the seeds of change were planted.

Change is seen every where, why does everything change? trust me if the process is followed properly you can answer the most difficult questions like why, when, how etc. Don't be active thinkers be proactive said the master of thoughts. he explained further. If there is a problem don't solve the problem, instead go to the root and remove it from the roots. remove the cause of the problem to be more specific.

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but

I took a heavenly ride through one silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life.

To give examples lets say you feel sad, don't sit and waste time, don't drink, don't start smoking, don't be depressed, instead see why are you sad? analyse yourself and not only yourself (that's the system here) but also the environment. you will slowly see patterns, patterns are the most wonderful thing you can see when you analyse, they are life savers. every thing is crystal clear then. you know where the problem is and bang you solved the cause. [If i havent mentioned earlier then "A well stated problem is a solution in itself" -Prof. Dhimant Panchal, Legend]. this is how system works, it gets you back to your life and time once gone is past so you change system change and environment changes, everything is set to better. ROLE OF DESIGNER IN BETTERMENT OF SOCIETY. think of systems and look for patterns life will be simple and you will be happy. Yes i am happy too.

I took a heavenly ride trough our silence

I knew the waiting had begin

And headed straight... into the shining sun.