They gonna fail us. but we worked for others.

1-2-3-4…6…
Hmm. so you did not study for your course because you been workin for something called quasar? wtf is this quasar? why is this quasar? why am I doin all the work? baaaah!

Yeh dil pighla ke saaz bana loon,
dhadkan ko awaz bana loon,
smoking smoking nikle re dhooan.

Everyday same things same issues and same people but with same scene with no work. people dont work for quasar and you dont work for assignments. many come and say they gonna help you many come and say its time to make this happen and others dont bother.. oh there are few who say you people not workin enough. phew!

Seene mein jalti hai armanon ki arthi,
Arrey what to tell you darling kya hua.

Slog slog slog, thats what you do and then you realise its not at all enough.. you need more people to work but you dont know what work to hand out to whom.. Sponsors name come in big names and big dreams but nothing happens and then you are at block one..

Arrey sapne dekhe jannat ke,
par mitti mein mil jaen,
phooken re ghar baar ki duniya..
ko bole good bye..
Chad jae haye Allah,
jisko bhi yeh bukhaar.

Every night is quasar night and everyday is quasar day. we play quasar quasar with each other. all we talk is minda kidhar hai, saraf idhar aa, praneti tu phone laga, class ke maa ki.. aye tuh majaak mat kar.. QUASAR! yeh kya hota hai?
I think we all are going crazy. its not less than any asylum to live in when you handle one event like this but what went wrong? others do handle bigger event... hmm maybe we taking everything too seriously.

Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!

But if i dont then who will? your momma? or mine? and why am i talking like this?? told ya goin crazy! cant help it.. few of them already have given in.
Lets not talk quasar.
Republic day coming up, planning to do some patriotic graphics. so i think thats enough for this post, i have time so lets do something NON QUASAR!

Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!
Tauba Tera Jalwa, Tauba tera pyar,
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!

Do not care, Cost-cutting in life.

Make plans and follow them. weekend is also packed and then you make huge changes to make things happen. Yes, lot of changes. You try and make things happen so as others wont feel bad. But others dont want them to happen now. you wonder why and then understand the problem faced by others.

Thought that everything was perfect

Isn't that how it's supposed to be?

Thought you thought that I was worth it

Now I think a little differently

You accept the fact that things wont happen according to plan so you decide to carry on and finish other things fast. But then you get to know that your accepting the fact is because you dont care. That hurts. O think thats meant to hurt. But not to think over things as they remind us of pills you go out for ride. You dont like the breeze hitting your face today. It makes tears roll down your eyes, Stupid wind thinks you should cry, you wipe your face with one hand and other holding the accelerator on full just to realise that wind wasnt that smart you are stupid. You dont stop you go, on and on. then you think lets divert mind so you go and shop. shopping biscuits isn't fun, specially when you pick one pack and ten fall. this happens over and over again. you are scared of whats happening.

There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want.

You get out of there and get back to riding when they call and tell you they want you to come back. you refuse and go on and on. till the road comes to an end. you come back and you see them standing there as if waiting for you. Hope you seek and they ask whats wrong with you why would you behave like this. Blackness shoots in you and you walk off...

you tell them you think i dont care? wait i will show you what it is not to care. you start to ignore and thats when you realise what they always say. there is no place for goodness in todays world.

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

RUN, else they'll spell you as Quboid.

The fest is here. In a month the BIG Q word is coming. and right now its time to point fingers at each other asking reasons and logic. if you cant answer then make something up else daddy does not like. dictators have given up. and diplomats are making their way in. but then the fest is supposed to be fun. yes it is fun to see yourself work day and night on something that kills you. you are about to sleep, you change and get into your bed after hours and hours of work on the Q, you tell your friend how tired you are and suddenly door opens and someone shouts SOS we need people for making pretty looking things. yes, the Q has its own beauty. it made many drink other smoke and some got slapped and some danced. You curse the guy and get out of your bed and take out your Q notebook(how cool) and tell him the possibilities. He says they wont work. Bah! time to get out of the bed at 2 AM. you go out, look for captain mind and tell him these people need to work. you take them all and go to guy with problem and then the guy says we dont want so many people. its better if i do it on own. Whate fun! anyway you make sure they work then and then you look at watch its 4.30 in morning. time for everyone to sleep now. i go to bed and sleep within few seconds. SARAF MEETING WITH JUNIORS. its morning and you are supposed to be at meeting with juniors and so you jump out of the bed reach for your toothbrush, brush your teeth while changing into your jeans which you been wearing for past month now and you run to institute thinking rest of the things i ll do once am back. the meeting goes on and gets over in 30 mins. wow that was fast and now can i go to hostel? no i cant. we need sponsors.. baah
When you have time you get busy living or you get busy dying.
i chose to die.

Day went by and we made lists of sponsors and lots more.. lists are part of life. Starts with Quasar list and will end as backlog list. Oh! there is a grade list also in between which hangs proudly on the notice brd of class. shows a C+ in front of my name. thats the jury grade. and yes also the design process grade.. so much for grinding pepper i thought but then its OK, shit happens . rest the grades looks decent for this cuboid.
Back to Quasar the Q word, the day goes in lists meetings and more meetings. shouting at people, taking crap from people wanting to go home and being unable to leave the institute. and there are dumb lookin un-enthusiastic juniors. how nice of them their existence is mere formality in putting up the fest. oh there is a presentation to be made for Monday on materials. DAMN !
dont even ask about the material class its theory and it is important.. very important. i already have thousands of pages to read and no time. test is going to test many things apart from materials. i think its time for presentation. the showdown.

WARNING: IF I FIND YOU READING THIS AND NOT WORKING FOR QUASAR YOU MIGHT END UP IN TROUBLE. THERE IS A POSSIBILITY I MIGHT ASK YOU TO WRITE FURTHER AS ANYWAY WE NEED CONTENT WRITERS AND EVEN PROOF READERS.

Silence must be heard let noise be ignored.

Mornings, god i hate them. Not because its a start of new day but more coz its the time when i cant tolerate people giving me all sort of crap. It starts with heavy firing for some thing which you have nothing to do, say like if the stupid oh or in common term 'idiot' television shows a blank blue screen with text on top which reads no signal. Now what can i do about a situation like this i try and explain them. Its not me, am innocent. i didn't put off the signal. yes i try and say that. Then people cry for not helping them. i give up. CAUTION: MY TEMPER LOSING ITS BALANCE. Control i tell myself. So i make way to other room take my laptop and start it. It starts and then restarts and then shuts down. saying unexpected error. my ass. anyway it starts later. i open my mail account and people want my my laptop as they cant yet solve the television issue(not that they can do anything about it but to realize its not their problem). Then they see me working on my laptop so they them self offer to use the other laptop on the table.

The war is about to start. people with heart problems advised to leave right away.

Q: how do i start 'this thing'?

A: there must be a power button press that.

the user finds out there are two switches on the laptop and presses one to see the laptop starting. As soon as the screen shows text the user presses the same switch and claims that the laptop shut by itself (yes i saw them doin it). I say you pressed it again so it got switched off. "NO i didnt press anything" they said. Now am about to explode.

then many worse things happened which i wanned to write about but now i've calmed down and i think there is no point in thinking about the bad times and then making rest of the day bad..

Santosh, see this is where writing helps.

and so i listen to songs..

Silence must be heard -Enigma

Look into the others eyes, many frustrations

Read between the lines, no words just vibrations

Dont ignore hidden desires

Pay attention, youre playing with fire

Silence must be heard, noise should be observed

The time has come to learn, that silence ...

Silence must be heard

Or diamonds will burn, friendly cards will turn

Cause silence has the right to be heard

Thus is the morning when am supposed to be institute and working while am here miles away and writing blog to understand what went wrong. Oh they want to get me help, some pills maybe in future, who cares if that what it takes to be happy.

A try with animation.

cuboid's trial animation with paper.

just for fun!

So he planned, lets go places

Sitting with nothing to do, cuboid heard his mom saying go to Mysore with friends and see place. Cuboid hardly agrees to what his mom says but somehow this time he liked the thought of going to places nearby to click photos and explore... yes i will said the cuboid immediately. called friend asked he said no. asked mom got permission to go alone.. now what do i do in Mysore alone.. so he looked through the sites for hours planning on what to do.. then suddenly he came to a site where he saw savandurga, and there is where he want to go. place 30 km west of Bangalore and has a monolith hill and a small temple with lake and peace.

I need serenity

In a place where I can hide

I need serenity

Nothing changes, days go by

Cuboid has no idea of what the place is like or where is it exactly. nor how to get there. he knows its the same place he saw while flying to Bangalore. It was beautiful he remembers. even from above.. its near very near. early morning if he leaves then he can visit it and even come back by evening. Have a day of peace in his vacations. Vacations come after a semester dont they?

Where do we go when we just don't know

And how do we relight the flame when it's cold

Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing

And when will we learn to control

If cuboids makes it there then he will post pictures of that place but this is where he want to go as of now..

Early morning blues.

Morning it comes at 13:00 for me usually in vacations. Today was unusual day, got up at 7 in morning. now thats early. and not just that now that am up i have no clue as to what to do. No clue of whats happened till 3 at night. All i remember is i was trying to sleep and she sent a msg and i was happy. I felt like i do matter to someone in this world at random hours like 2 at night. then i couldnt sleep thinking of things.. Things like how many people do we meet in our life and how much of a difference do we make to individuals life. we have no clue of what other person truly thinks of you. We dont know what we think of our self. LOST, again lost we are, clueless. but then some one sends msg and you feel good. you know life is worth living for all these small things.

buddy, i like that. thank you.

World is a cube, its melting like ice.

Sounds like a phrase for global warming. that reminds me of a poster i can make.. with those thousands of downloaded photoshop brushes. 'Life made easy'. Easy? its just a run away from things. running away from responsibilities, away from nightmares and away from hard work. Are we running away from life? But we don't know what life is, do we? definitely not.

if someone asks me about my life i ask them their definition of life so i can tell them how that part of me is like. if i ask myself how is my life i have no answers. Answers? what answers? where are the freakin questions?

'A well said problem is a solution in itself' said the big boss once. Once? again who am i fooling? he says it all the time..i am missing boss he keeps reminding me of the purpose, existence and responsibility. "Adi, this guy is irritating me" said he and i opened my eyes to my own world. who am i trying to fool here? myself? i thought. day went by and i learnt something. dedication. Dedication that shows in my work says jury. but i know its not enough. what if i dedicate myself completely to work? wonders might happen. then why don't i do that? maybe i love fooling myself. It makes my world look good to myself. Cuboid's cubic world looks as if its a nice looking cube of glass. Truth: its freaking ice cube which is melting min by min. soon its gonna be water and this cuboid will sink in it. boss was right, cuboid has dedication issues. Cuboid is just what world wants to see him like. Cuboid has none of its own dimensions. But it's time for change. Time to change the dimensions and stopping the world from melting.

'The only difference between a rut and a grave is their dimensions.'

The new face

With the year ending the face of this cuboid is changing. no not the look but many other things. behaviour towards other cubes, cuboids, spheres, cones whatever and who so ever might be different. Its not forced but evolved. everyone gets what they should and not what they want. Sounds scary but its time for change. The new year is going to begin with totally new people, people i have never ever met in my life. This coming year is about new things and is about change. 2009 is about changing the dimension of the ultimate cube, about cuboid with fillets, about making things happen, and stuff evolve, 2009 is about aims and ambitions. Above all its about living every moment.
“You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.”

The new face of cuboid is coming soon

Yes its time for a change.. this one is inspired from one of DA works named as cube.

J for jury

Tensions everywhere, everyone crying for less work, everyone thinks they gonna fail, everyone is giving their juries(yet). Chuck it lets watch a movie!

Its time this cuboid makes wonders with MDF cuboids

Design process idea finalized and ready to be made.. urge to make a working prototype but things not easy and time is less.. but that's when cuboids is at its best.. the task is known but the way needs to be figured out.. and lots of stuff to be done in very less time.. maybe this world will not know of cuboids world for few days. But first things first.

Lets start with the dimensions.

Glue anyone?

The shattered cuboid went to big boss and told him yes he was right when he said this cuboid is not working in the fullest efficiency. WHY? asked he. cuboid did not know what to say as he did not know what the problem is.. Cuboid said that there aren't any distractions, boss said yes he can tell if there are any he could tell if cuboid was on drugs. but he wasn't then what was wrong? WHAT? thought the cuboid while working while drinking coffee and while talking to himself. and he got the answer in himself. but he wasn't too sure if it was what he thought it is. He thought it could be the depression creeping inside of him which is making him numb. But what was the source? maybe thought the cuboid its the loneliness he had been feeling, that no fellow solids are his friends as he thinks friends should be. IS it that? he is not sure but he knows cuboids should not roll like spheres where ever there is gentle slope. they are meant to be stable. they shall be stable.
After all World is cube and this is cuboid's world.

PRODUCT SYSTEM

Product design is about 3D mapping said boss. 3D mapping includes detailing, aesthetics, surface finishing, understanding of material, visualizing and overview. "I doubt but if you manage to make it to next semester this is going to be a big problem for you." scary.. depression seeking its way into mind, whole life was a waste in one moment. CRASH one person lost all the faith in himself! One cuboid shattered.

When i thought ill start, They stopped me.

Looking at the blog i thought it needs a good start,
reading others i felt it will never be good like others i want.

but have to start sometime so why not now? i thought it needs new graphic.
being in design "institute" teaches us to use photoshop to great extent. not limitless boundaries.. you need to explore.. that's what each assignments asks you to do. assignment? the step towards learning? or 'DE-learning' they call it here.. trust me its not easy to DE-learn. "The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education." said Albert Einstein. its way difficult to De-learn. but over the small philosophical talks alike minds says innovation is starting with nothing in mind.. Innovation? had long talks about this, few great minds say its The term innovation means a new way of doing something while other great ones wrote roshan loves pallu. no that's innovative. It really is. INNOVATION. starting a blog named as i-cuboid or reading travails of life(and finding patterns in other blogs) what is innovative? or nothing in that is innovative? innovation the word that will get you thinking and keep going through design process.

Design Process: follow the process right in action and the product will evolve by itself.

No it does not. it requires physics, engineering, CAM profiles, mathematics? well there are no such things. ITS ALL COMMON SENSE. that's what the big boy says. Big boy is cool, he knows stuff. stuff he did in his past life is so cool. i bet he can (or probably has) designed a way to change the way you think. OH! did he brainwash us? are we following him blindly? but then he knows stuff. so its cool and that is why he is cool. How 'cool'. but we all like to listen to his talks, don't we? he just left for the day. probably saw me typing and thinking i need to fix this CUBE. CUBE? that me. cuboid to be more specific coz of extra length. there are cubes, cuboids, spheres and even 2D planes here. that's what design is all about here. some cubes cracking nuts, cuboid grinding pepper, spheres(well i thought eyes are spherical, ill ask the big boy if they not) slicing eggs. Oh then there are other breed of people who are looking for design interventions by stalking people, how cool!

Well lets get back to starting. the blog needs new graphic but it can wait till new year right now i need to work. Someone sitting next to me said that. probably true, she knows stuff too, she has cool mom. But she makes me write this. Tuesdays gone, forms still to be worked on and this cuboid just saw a cuboid with fillets. ahh i like that name, cuboid with fillets a softer edge to it.
umm lets keep this blog to design.

Design(d-zn) To have as a goal or purpose; intend.